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Middle of week 11 - 19th November

Starting weight - 12 st 4lb

Last weight - 11st 4lb

New weight - 11st 2lb

Comments

* If I am to not get too carried away by my weight fluctuating up a few pounds, so I should do the same when it goes down. Whilst the weigh in this morning is positive, I will need to see it repeated before I consider it a 'true' value.

* I can feel the difference. It is remarkable how quickly I have gone from barely being able to squeeze a leg into a pair of 34inch trousers to them actually feeling relatively loose. Indeed I finally felt comfortable buying a new pair of jeans yesterday, having held off until I could confidently buy the right waist size.

* I was interested to note yesterday that the absence of my daily food log makes snacking potentially far easier. Some mints were being passed round (not the worst of snacks I appreciate) and in my mind I told myself it was okay to take one as I wouldn't have to record it. This is an interesting development, almost as if my mind sees the food log as an authority figure and I can revert to a naughty school child when teacher is away, rather than buying into the plan wholeheartedly.

* I declined the mint by the way. Although I did eat a beetroot.

* I censored myself twice whilst writing this week, something I am not keen to do. In both instances, I was concerned that my words would be taken the wrong way and cause unnecessary discomfort. My blogs work best by being brutally honest but I think it is also important that they focus on me. It is not fair to extend them to encompass the thoughts and actions of others, at least not without their consent. In the end, the process writing the words just for myself was enough to explore the underlying issues and put them to bed.

* I did however write two new pieces this week. The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year is a blog on how mental illness impacts Christmas, whilst The Journey is a poem exploring my mental health journey. I don't write poetry often so it is a little amateurish but have a read and see what you think. Both are available elsewhere on the site.