1066 All Stars

Day 49 - 19th October

Food Log

Breakfast - Bran Flakes with sultanas

Lunch - Ham salad sandwich and Grandad's birthday cake

Dinner - Oven cooked sausage and chips with spaghetti

Dessert - Yoghurt

In Between Meal Snacks

* Apple

* Hobnob Medley bar

* Grapes

Thoughts & Feelings

* I went for my first jog today. Before setting off, I had in my mind a basic circuit to run but that was completely blown out of the water when I got going. I had thought that my lunchtime power walks would have prepared me and bult up some lung capacity but runing and walking are two entirely different things. I was gassed after just a few minutes and was reduced to walking part of the way having already decided to cut my route short.

* There is a temptation to be embarassed, almost ashamed of this 'failure' but that would be too harsh. I did it. And having done it once, I can do it again.

* During my route, I ran / walked past a couple of other people and had time to note my reaction. I wasn't embarassed at huffing and puffing past them with a big, red face. I was proud of myself for doing it. These people aren't judging me, I am projecting my self judgement on to them. Comparing myself to others is folly. I am on my own journey.

* I was very hungry when I came back. It was interesting to note that the first snack I reached for was not crisps or chocolate or sweets, but an apple.

* Meals clearly not in line with the plan today for various reasons, no big deal.

* Pain watch - ironically mostly caused by the run. When I came back, I had a headache, neckache, leg ache, ache ache. it was grim. But no particular issues with the usual neck / shoulder pain.

* Anxiety watch - lots of triggers today and it has inspired a new thread. Look out for The Anxiety Diaries, coming shortly.

* It was noted by a special lady that my blogs over the last week or so had included more humour than previous entries. This brings two points to mind.

1) This is reflective of finding myself in a better place mentally, having reached a degree of acceptance over my current circumstances, following the principles of mindfulness.

2) Someone actually reads these?

3) It turns out I had a third point.

4) Which has now become four after wasting one on that last entry.

5) Hang on, this is getting silly now.

6) Right, let's get back to business. My 3rd / 6th observation is that it is pleasing when someone picks up on some of the throwaway comments I include in these blogs. There is no forethought that goes into them, I just start writing and allow the words to capture however I feel. Sometimes I like to have some fun with the words just because it makes me laugh to do so, and so it is nice to know that others are enjoying it too.