1066 All Stars

Day 44 - 14th October

Food Log

Breakfast - Bran flakes with sultanas

Lunch - Some muck I found in the freezer, plus rice

Dinner - Mince with veg

Dessert - Yoghurt and some nanny sweets

In Between Meal Snacks

2x rice cake

Apple

Go Ahead fruit slice (x3)

Thoughts & Feelings

* I was determined to approach today in a more positive mindset. This should not however be confused with 'positive thinking' such as that promoted by spiritual guru's. Therapy has shown me the folly of this way of thinking and how it may be as unhealthy as negative thinking. If we think negatively, this is likely to be reinforced, exacerbating our mood. If we think positively ('today will be great, I will achieve xyz') we are setting ourselves up for a fall if we fail.

* Instead, I remind myself to think with balance. I will look for the positive, work toward the positive but I accept the negative may happen anyway. Life doesn't owe me anything, sometimes Mother Nature can be a cruel mistress. Do not seek happiness. Seek only balance and acceptance. Then happiness will find you. In time.

* My first opportunity to alter my work mindset was presented almost immediately this morning and I am pleased with my contribution. More of the same is now required.

* It is always nice when writing ideas come to mind, it gives me something to look forward to that evening. I have two pieces I am keen to progress, a children's story and an interpretation piece, which should be a lot of fun.

* Went out for a good, brisk walk today. There was a bit of moisture in the air but I have reached the conclusion that it will need to be near enough monsoon conditions to stop me going out. I am, however, rather sweaty.

* It crossed my mind whilst out walking that I don't blog about my dad much. A visit to Hastings over the weekend was a stark reminder that he is no longer with us. I asked myself what he would wish for me, if he had the chance. I suspect it would simply be for me to have happiness and contentment in my life, wherever I find them.