1066 All Stars

Day 2 - 2nd September 2014

Food Log

Breakfast - Tea and Bran Flakes (with sultanas)

Lunch - Salad with bread roll and half corn on the cob

Dinner - Granny made burger with vegetables, tinned tomato and spoon of baked beans

Dessert - Yoghurt

In between meal snacks:

Portion of green beans

Apple

Thoughts and Feelings

* No weigh in today. I know from experience that weighing in too often can be dispiriting and that weight can fluctuate so the plan is to do this weekly.

* I felt motivated this morning. I was really glad that I opted to share this experience in a blog, it gave me a purpose, beyond a vague notion of wanting to lose weight. I don't even know if anyone else will have any interest in reading along but operating on the basis that they will adds a level of impetus to proceedings. I feel determined to lose weight.

* My enthusiasm really started to wane in the morning, perhaps not coincidentally around the time I ate my green beans. Boy, they were grim and it set off a thought cycle of food.

* I popped out at lunch to buy a bread roll to go with my salad. It seemed a reasonable compromise. Whilst I appreciate that it may carry a certain amount of calories, it will keep me filled and gives me afternoon carbs.

* The trip round Sainsbury's meant I came face to face with crips, sweets and chocolate. I had an understandable craving but happily walked on by.

* I also bought some crackers to act as a morning snack (in place of the grim beans). I was tempted by a cream cheese to go with them but was worried about the fat content so opted for tomatoes. Bizarrely, I started to get some really self conscious thoughts about it. I used to have this snack in my last job and started to think how people don't really know me in my current job and they might think I'm a weirdo for having tomatoes and crackers.

* Just a short walk at lunch due to my enforced trip to Sainsbury's but a longer jaunt is planned tomorrow. Exercise is of course a crucial part of any healthy living plan. It is difficult to fit it in around the kids. My preference is to get up early and use the exercise bike but the trouble is, with feeding Aiden around 11ish each night, I'm ruddy knackered every day. At this early stage, I'm not convinced that dragging myself out of bed (or, more likely, failing to do so and feeling bad about it) is the best option. Walking is a good start. This is a journey (figuratively, not literally in this case, I only have an hour for lunch).

* I became quite conscious of how fat I am today. I looked down and saw my stomach bursting out of my shirt. I don't like it. It affects my confidence, I feel as though I may be judged down because of my weight and appearance.

* I really wanted a hot chocolate drink in the afternoon. I suspect it was mainly a combination of 1) being bored and 2) forgetting to buy milk to make tea. I resisted. A small victory but an important one at this early stage.

* I am hungry but I am determined not to snack. I really want to do this.