1066 All Stars

Only a couple of days in and it's hard work so far.

The first day of exercies really clobbered me. Whether it was due to poor warming up and stretching or just lack of use, my leg muscles are really tight to the point that I'm seriously wondering how I'll be able to do this every day.

Elsewhere, I find my mind continually going back to wondering why I am doing this, questioning the value of it all. What is my end goal? That has today been joined by a new worry as I've started to wonder if I'm doing it right. I haven't used a single recipe from the book and today's breakfast was a giant bowl of something laced with sugar. I appreciate that this is not a cleanse per the C9 but I'm surely not supposed to eat rubbish? I'm not quite sure what I am and am not allowed to eat. I miss the strict, regimented plan of the C9.

There are other things going on. My mood and energy levels have remained low, a legacy of both underlying symptoms of depression and anxiety, not to mention the tablets I am taking to combat them. I have perhaps made this harder for myself than I needed to.

Still, the journey continues. These are bumps in the road and soon I'll see them in the rearview mirror and take pride in getting over them.