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Food Diary

Breakfast - 120ml Alove Vera Gel, 2x Garcinia Softgel Tablets, 1x Therm Tablet, water, 300ml Lite Ultra Shake (with skimmed milk)

Lunch - 2x Garcinia Softgel Tablets, 1x Therm Tablet, 300ml Lite Ultra Shake (with skimmed milk)

Dinner - Pork chop, pasta with chopped tomatoes & herbs and veg (approx. 600 calories), 2x Garcinia Softgel Tablets

Evening - water

Snacks - Fibre packet with water

Free Foods - 1x apple, 2x plums, handful of grapes

Drinks - 8 glasses (circa 3l) water

Exercise - 60 minute walk

Thoughts

* A disappointing start to the morning. After going to bed annoyed about a couple of things, I woke up in a low mood. My mind started to focus on negatives such that all the positives raised yesterday were dispelled. Instead I became fixated on my stomach and the perceived lack of movement. I am anxious about the weigh in tomorrow, desperate to see some movement on the scales but as an eye ball test, I don't think I look any different.

* This mindset extended its negativity tentacles to my day 3 and 4 meals as I began to regret the jacket potato, thinking it is too calorie and carb heavy to be good for me as an evening meal. My Mental Healthy thinking then took over as black and white thinking and catatrophising tell me that I have ruined the plan, it was a waste of time, I am destined to remain at this weight forever, and on and on.

* As with mental health, balanced thinking is the key. I have followed the plan, I have improved my diet and I have continued with exercise. If I don't lose any weight then I must accept that that is so. Worrying or procrastinating about it is unlikley to trim any extra pounds.

* And besides, I have noticed benefits. Of my 3 goals, I deemed matters of the mind the least likely to achieve and the hardest to judge and yet it is here where I have a tangible sense of improvement. Whatever else happens in the remaining days, it is important not to lose sight of this in my rush for self judgement and damnation.

* I feel generally more tired today. I suspect this is in part due to my 1 hour lunchtime walks. I enjoy them but I am perhaps pushing myself a little too hard, my legs in particular beginning to protest, and so may reduce the time or intensity for the last few days of the plan.

* I remain surprised by just how full I feel after my lunchtime shake. I have drunk 300ml of skimmed milk yet I feel like I have polished off a 12oz steak and chips with extra lashings of stomach filler.

* It is now five days without tea and other than the routine of drinking it (breaks in the day, evening after dinner) I haven't missed it that much. I look forward to having a cup when the plan is over but this has been a useful exercise in demonstrating that I can easily reduce my intake.

* Talking of routines, Wednesday would normally mean crisp day. Suffice to say, I didn't miss them.