1066 All Stars

Day 51 - 21st October

Food Log

Breakfast - Weetabix Minis

Lunch - Bacon and mushrooms with pasta in chunky veg tomato sauce

Dinner - Chicken curry with vegetables

Dessert - Blueberry crumble and ice cream

In Between Meal Snacks

* Apple

* 2x rice cakes

* Go Ahead yoghurt bar (x2)

Thoughts & Feelings

* Tuesday, which means dinner at Granny's where she kindly accommodates my dietary amendments.

* My mood is low today. There is no specific cause I can identify, just an underlying current of sadness. Part of it is perhaps a fatigue of trying to mask my dissatisfaction with certain elements of my life. It was a conscious decision to so, an attempt to live a happiness I didn't feel with the hope that it would become a sustainable mood. Whilst this is just a dip, sustained low mood can very easily become depression. I must be wary not to dangle my toes too far into the well for fear that I may slip off the edge.

* It is midday as I write this part of the post and I find myself feeling full still. Previously, my stomach would rumble all morning, exacerbating my snack habit. A brisk lunchtime walk will likely give me an appetite but it is encouraging that the snacking desire appears to be being tackled both psychologically and physically.

* Post lunch and I find myself faced with an almost overwhelming tiredness. A consequence of the carb heavy lunch perhaps? No idea but there will be copious amounts of tea flowing this afternoon.