1066 All Stars

Day 11 - 11th September 2014

Food Log

Breakfast - Tea and Bran Flakes (with sultanas)

Lunch - Stir fry vegetables with noodles and char sui sauce, corn on the cob

Dinner - Chicken soup with 1x slice white bread

Dessert - Apple and blackberry cheesecake with ice cream

In between meal snacks:

Apple

Plum

Banana

Thoughts and Feelings

* Still fighting off the cold today but once again looked forward to lunch and the chance to stretch my legs.

* I did kinda go the wrong way though and, whilst I knew where I was, found myself further away from the office than the 10 minutes lunch break I had left, resulting in a sweaty powerwalk back. Jolly invigorating though!

* To help fight off the cold, I wanted to buy some methol sweets. Given that they were various flavours of fruit, I made the mistake of looking at the calories and was horrified to discover how many carbs they had and therefore didn't buy them. Overkill? Perhaps. I do have a tendency to all or nothing behaviour, there is very often no middle ground. Whilst I am ultimately happy with the decision made, it is important to remember that behaviours are not fixed; just because I act a certain way today (and have done in the past) does not prevent me from acting a different way in the future. That we can change is a fundamental lesson of my mental health recovery.

* I have a degree of impatience regarding the diet. It is only natural I guess but I want to see some tangible results. There is an element of anxiety about the next weigh in. What if I haven't lost any more? What if I have gained weight? I suspect I will be fine this week if there is no real movement but if it stretches into week 3 there is a real danger of losing motivation.

* Still, that is projecting. Mindfulness reminds us to live in the present. Weigh in is Monday morning and not before.

* Declines - biscuits, cake, meatball